My mental health has been suffering again just recently and I’ve not been dealing too well with that. After talking with some friends the other night, I have decided that maybe it’s time to go back to counselling and actually attend for more than one session. I feel like there is something from my childhood that I’m missing, something I can’t remember and I hope that talking to a professional may help me remember/slash move on from what ever it is. Mine was a difficult childhood that was never settled with moving a lot and my mother’s various boyfriends, having younger sisters to look after and house work to do I never really felt like I was a child at all. I was just something caught between childhood and adulthood. I mostly feel like that now to be honest.
I was actually scrolling through Instagram one night when I came across a meme shared by someone that described one of the feelings I feel which I believe must stem from my unsettled childhood. Homesick, I feel homesick all of the time. I’m not sure where for it if this place even exists. Maybe it’s a homesickness for a home I wish existed, a feeling, an emotion that my mind has created for itself. Maybe that’s what I hope I would feel about this non-existent ‘home’. I’m hoping a professional can also help me deal with this. I find talking helps me but I struggle with who I feel safe enough to talk to so it’s a vicious circle really.
So that’s it, I’m off to counselling and feeling rather positive about it actually.
I’ll leave you there before I bore you with the ramblings of my beautiful mind.
Amy xx
It’s been a very strange couple of days since I lasted posted. I was I’ll with a bug at the beginning of the week which never does wonders for my mental health! So I’ve been feeling very down again and struggling to find any motivation. But I did return to work on Wednesday to cover a shift for a colleague (regretted it but that’s a different story) and worked last night and had the best shift ever!
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